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Goodbye

2011-09-06T20:33:00.000-07:00

This is so unexpected. The only reason why I decided to blog was again because of you. I did not even expect my last blog post was about you. 1 Year passed, same problem i'm facing with you again.

But hey, this time it's different. I'm pretty sure. There is so many things I want to mention here.

I was nice to you, you were nice to me. Things change drastically when i fall for you and confessed. I have to admit I did too many stupid and silly things for the past 4 months.

You taught me what is punctuality. You taught me what is EQ. You made me become so concious of my surroundings.

You were my priority, and because of that, Sub-conciously, you climbed to the top of my head. I lost my dignity in front of you. You could just turn your temper anytime on me, and I will just suck it up. I thought It was alright, at least we are still communicating.

I shielded you in project, I thought that was good. I was wrong, so wrong. You took me for granted. Sure you did improve in group discussion, but even in projects, you gave me attitudes. There was nothing we could talk. I restricted myself out from so many things.

Just 1 week ago, I made one of the hardest decision in my life. That was to give you up. That was when I realise, there is so much thing I could do towards this friendship. I wasn't myself for the past 4 months. When I reflected, things changed, my mind became so clear I could anticipate your moves. It took me 4months to know your character. It wasn't easy. I may not know what you think, But I know how you react, I began to realise the importance of myself. I found out I belittle myself so much in the friendship that I wasn't giving myself the respect I deserve. I could do changes, I had the power. I used to think the one controling the friendship was you, till I stand back and reflect.

Sure I myself have faults too, I'm sorry, I apologised. I know definitely somehow I played a small role in shaping you for who you are now.

You changed my life.

2010-08-08T09:34:00.000-07:00

I'm going to blog about you today. You changed my life one way or another. I'm not perfect, I have attitude problem, blah blah blah blah. I was so happy back then, nothing could make me pissed off for more then 10minutes except family issues. Till, I met you, I changed. I don't know why, sometimes I would get quite pissed off with you or you would get pissed off with me and I won't feel good too. it will stay on my mind for as long as it wants. I never need a listening ear ever since secondary3. You proven it wrong to me. I got so upset at one point of time, that I needed a listening ear.

I though we were good.. I was wrong. We couldn't communicate. I treated you as though you are one of my sibling. My ways of treating you were obviously wrong. Instead of bonding and get to know each other more, we drift further apart. Alot of times, I talk without thinking. I have hurted your pride. My character is like this. I tried changing, but i failed and I'm quite unwilling to change.

I choose to escape from this situation. The moment we talk, there will be conflict. Since I can't control my mouth, I rather have slience then conflict. Whatever the outcome is, I have chosen it. I was supposed to be able to handle any major situation/conflicts, but I was wrong. It seems I have put too much confidence in myself already.

With that, more and more problems sets in. I really wish for us to be as close as before, as when we just knew each other. I know I cared for you. I too have a sharp mouth but a soft heart inside. It's not easy to see the soft side of me too. I havn't seen it myself for 2 years already. I thought I could help you, turns out I'm a failure myself. Tch, what a joke.

This blog, have many of my reflections. This is one of the very few emotional post of mine. What is going on? Where will this lead me to. I dont have any clear directions anymore. Lastly, I, YaN apologise in this blog of mine to you. I'm sorry.

Revival of YaN

2010-07-29T07:39:00.000-07:00

It has been months every since I blogged. Many obstacles have prevent me from blogging. I'm not blaming it. I wasn't strong enough to overcome these obstacles. Well nevermind, I have decided to revive this blog and start blogging again!

Well 2.5 months has passed. I havn't been exercising! In fact I have gain back 2 or 3 kilograms already. I realise that the moment I stop blogging, is the moment i start to slacken down. No, This can't be happening to me. My perfect plan... I will achieve my goal.

Many things happened during this period, be it happy or sad. My language is deproving as time passes. I'm no longer can be as optimistic as I used to be. This is something I really hated. Never in my life after secondary 3, I needed a listening ear, till recently. I needed a ear, a ear to hear my sorrow, a ear to vomit out my grief.

I have learn alot of new things in school. It's fantastic. It's just another few weeks to YOG break. Will I spend the time dwelling on games again? Well, I think not. It's time I get back on the right track and start my run. It's a long run, but I believe i will reach my goal.

I lost my motivation in life. I am trying to get it back by blogging. Blogging is the period, whereby I will reflect. When I reflect, It kinda motivate me to achieve my goals. I have been enjoying life for the past 2.5 months already. I will try to blog thrice a week and pen down my thoughts towards anything I experienced.

Gym, I miss you. I love you. I want to be your boyfriend. Next morning I will visit you. Please break off with me along with my fats when it is time to do so. I will blog again on saturday or sunday. I have too much in my mind to talk. It's just not processed to which is suppose to be here and which is not.

Anyway, I have one quote that I learn today. That is
"Do not give objection without giving suggestion".

Good quote, I agree with this. :)

Labour day, is known as queue day!

2010-05-02T00:46:00.000-07:00

Hohoho, I'm updating updating!!!

3weeks of school, 3 weeks of fun, 3 weeks of studies! triple the joy, triple the fun!
LOL, sounds like kinder joy's advertisment eh? hahah, fourth week is a test week in ite. =( Test is going to be often already!

Alright, I shall blog about yesterday. I went to popeye's restaurant. The queue is really long! All the way outside! We took 30minutes to queue, another 1hour for our food. First time ever in my life, I queue 1.5hours for food.

Anyway I was with JiLong and his girlfriend. Dinner was great, hang out around in Amk Hub and then I went off to Tampiness. Stay over at starbucks and Mac with some new friends. It was quite fun, and till this day, I'm still very anti against toning over night.

I bought contact lens, have been wearing it for 1week plus already. Getting used to it now. When I first use it, it took me 30minutes to take it off, and another 30minutes to put it in. Now it's just 5minutes for both!

This is the money I earn from selling pixels! I will appreciate it and perhaps it's time to spend on some stuff. =/ Okay, I shall stop here, have to do some homework and housekeeping. Enjoy the rest of the weekend fellow mates! =)

Hahah, I'm updating already!

2010-04-27T08:35:00.000-07:00

yO peoples!

Alright, I'm in a better and proper mood today to blog about stuffs! Wasn't feeling so good for the past few days until today! Reason will be as follows. One, I have successfully sold my game's pixel stuff. 6 pixel items for $1,360. How cool is that? To top it up, I'm the one selling the cheapest already!

Selling of this scrolls, clearly meant I'm quitting games that require commitment for good. It will not be in my mind till I'm having a break, or when I feel it's the right time for games that require commitment again! I'm really happy that I chose this decision! Not only do I get to spend the money, I also get to be free from game!

Path is straight, Aims have been made, Time to prove it! I'm doing fine in ITE. Teachers are kind, fun and loving mates in schools! It's how to view it =D. I have regain my confidence and I will proveI'm not small matter. I will make a difference in the class, in the school, in the family! I will be a impact!!!! Nope, I'm not arrogant, I believe this is the right spirit to get started on and I'm going to achieve it!

There is only One Life, Live it to the fullest! =) I got a dinner with my new group of friends today. We can have fun together can communicate well. I find myself to be more comfortable with matured people. We can talk alot and I really enjoyed it. It's not that I'm that mature okay! I enjoyed talking to people my age too. Different age, different topic! However, I'm more interested in philosophy, so I'll be comfortable with matured people because they have a lot of experiences to share with me!

There is this one incident which happen today. It was my one of my lecturer in ITE. Initially, it was just some casual question for the teacher. However, I went one step further and ask her more questions. She actually have the qualifications to be a lecturer in poly. She have a master degree. Her portfoilo is definitely very nice.

To my surprise, she chose to be a teacher in ITE. She has hopes for student. She wants to be of use to the society in Singapore. She believe she can make some difference in the education system in Singapore. I really was quite touched by this particular teacher. The way she gave her lectures... It was one of the most friendliest class. She is very approachable!

Such examples, always gave me motivation to do well and be of use to society one fine day. In the past, it did too. However, It was only for a moment. After that, I completely forgotton about it and go back to my same old self. In the present, it shall not be the same!

Thank you Miss Hildas. 2weeks and 2 days, you have gotten my respect. The ways you lecture lessons, the ways you communicate with us, it is one of a kind. I appreciate it. =)

Alright, I'll end my post here already. I have homeworks that I haven't completed. Have a good sleep everyone.

With Love,
YaN

Time flyyyyyyyyys

2010-04-24T09:21:00.000-07:00

Yo, what's up! YaN is here to blog about his life! In blink of an eye, 2 weeks of school have passed. I'm in Bishan ITE. Do not look down on ITE. Though there is really a handful of students who are really a disgrace to the society, ITE produces good student too!

I have set my aims after i graduate from ITE already. I'm aiming for 3.8~4gpa. Business course in poly. I know it's achieveable. I will really work hard for it.
Getting to know new friends, participating in project works, presenting in front of the class. Having confidence, all this was what i didn't have back then in secondary school.

Thinking back, I have really wasted my secondary school life. There's so much fun in it. I missed out so much!!!! My ex classmate were excellent mates too. It's just a pity I wasn't mature at that point of time! This will always be one of my regrets in my life.

ITE Bishan is really hot! The canteen is not that fantastic too. There is 3 malays stall, 1 indian, and 1 chinese stall. I'm not trying to be racist here, but what the f**k? Never in my life have i seen malay stalls being so populated. I simply can't accept the fact that there is more malays than chinese in the school. Sorry, I really not being racist.

I'm trying hard, but not too hard to change my attitude now! Hope I will achieve a suan-free mouth by end of year =D. I don't know what to blog now. My school is good, having some issues with family, however will solve it as soon as possible to avoid further quarrels! =D

Alright just a short post for the past weeks. Have fun all =D

My grammer sucks. I just read through it and finally did some editing.

2010-04-08T10:39:00.000-07:00

Gosh i didn't know my grammer suck till like that. Okay anyway, since i have to blog now. Lets blog!

I have been working out for the past 4days. It's good workout. My mood to exercise is back. This is fucking good news to me. I want my arms to have muscles. Therefore I'll be working towards it. Just some chest muscle with arm muscle will do. No six packs hahaha. Most importantly just SLIM DOWN!!!! I sounded as though my words will do the job eh? Hahaha. In life, if things I know it's within my reach, i will achieve it if i want to.

To any who doubt me. I will prove you wrong. Why am i so confident? Cause i like having big promises. It will motivate me to work towards it. I have my pride to protect alright.

School is starting. I love it, shall be looking forward to it. The days with stress is better then without it. No stress, no life. Without stress, i can't move forward, brain isn't functioning. My life used to be all about experiencing. I don't believe words. I only believed in myself. I was wrong, thoroughly wrong. I changed, i began to believe in others. Their experiences, their advise. I won't go the hard way and waste my life anymore.

Business class. Must have alot pretty ladies! This will boost my determination in aiming 3.8~4 for gpa. I don't know why, somehow looking at pretty ladies makes me feel good. Hello, I'm no pervert. Most teenage guys do okay! Sigh, it's June soon. Looking back, time passes real fast. I'm going to be 18 soon. Reflecting back, I'm only 18, yet i have so many regrets that I didn't do last time. Looks like I can only use line to make myself feel better. 看开一点咯。 Look forward, tomorrow will be better. =)

Life's good if you deem it's good. However sometimes, there is this invisible stress. It's when something really bothers you, and you are worrying for it. No matter how you think, you won't feel good for that moment. In everybody's life. There is 2 button. It's both no-push button. One is as such, the invisible stress that spoil your day. Another would be something stupid or something particularly that just pissed you off. Once somebody did that, It's gone case. It just pissed you off.

Okay I'm still lazy to upload the photos. I'm already thinking, why should i upload it. Hoho, Shall reconsider whether to upload it or not. I'm busy busy busy! Anyway today went out with some ex colleagues. Ate at rk house, then went over to play cards. Some bonding we have there. It's good to meet out once in awhile.

Okay, finished my post already. Cool eh, mood to blog is also back too. =D Goodnight all.

WiTh LoVe,
YaN

HI, this is YaN updating.

2010-04-06T10:53:00.000-07:00

HELLO GUYS, Sorry, i didn't update my blog for so long. I'm just plain lazy. Anyway, first of all, i have to blog regarding my oversea trip. Alright, i have quite alot to blog, so let's see whether do i have the mood to pen down all my stuffs.

Well, i departed from Singapore to Qatar-Doha on 24/3 2am. It was a 7 hours journey. My assigned sit basically sucks. Beside me was another person who is about the same size as me. So, it was very cramp. One slight move, could cause the other party to wake up from his slumber. Most of all this guy kept on going to the toilet to and fro, and my sit at the aisle, have to stand up and give way. Fuck that okay, irritating.

After i reach, it was 4am+ in Doha. The timezone differences was 5hours. Singapore is 5hours faster then Doha. Well i won't want to type out everything here, as it's real long. Settled in Doha on my sister's company apartment. Off to shopping in Doha.
I hereby declare, Doha is a place for people to work. It isn't a tourist attraction.
There is only 2 large shopping malls with nothing but branded goods.

Well, since there is nothing to do, My sister and my Mum went to shop. After 2 days, we headed to Dubai. It's a 1hour ride from Doha. It's nearer to Singapore then Doha is. Journey took roughly 1hour. Dubai is heaven! Doha is hell. -.- You got to believe me. Let me do some comparision.

In Doha, Women have to dress up fully if you are outside. You have to wear stockings if you are wearing skirts or hot pants. At night, no women come out to shop. it's all men. Man can't jog openly with shorts. You will get judged badly by the locals.
The food there sucks, worst of all, NO PORK! ISLAMIC LAWS! Dubai on the other hand, is a tourist attraction. Tourist are welcome to wear what they like, there is pork even though it's a Islamic country?

There is only about 20% locals in the country. I'm just giving a rough idea. Trust me, it's that amount. The rest are expats. The country are rich. Their locals get Sgd 8000 a month from the government. All you have to do, is become their citizen. Cool eh? Got oil means win already. Their oil can last them another 100years. Their locals wear turban on head and 'sarong' lol. It's white in colour. They have attitude problem too. They are so proud of theirselves. Take the immigration officer for example. They totally sucks. Especially the womens. They can seriously get banged by car x100, get raped by bangala x100.

I passed 4 customs, due to journey to dubai and back to Doha. 2 were neutral and 2 sucks. She can stare at you, give you those fuck face. Then give you your passport as though you owe her $100k. When the passport dropped without you evening touching it. They give you a totally-deserve-to-be-slapped face. I meant what i say. As though i dropped it. KANILAOBU, FUCK YOUR COUNTRY, FUCK YOUR WORLD. HOPE UR OIL FINISH YOUR COUNTRY BECOME THIRD WORLD COUNTRY.

Alright now the compliments. The building there are very unique. I have to admit, the design is really stunning. I will upload some pictures later on. I don't think i did took the building pictures, but it's some other interesting picture too.
Their cars are almost all white due to the sandstorm there. It gets dirty easily if you choose other colour for the cars.

Anyway, there is the tallest building in the world in dubai, and also the self proclaim only 7 star hotel in the world. I have pictures for both. Gosh, 7 star hotel really look amazing. There's even a helipad on top of the building. The restaurant is under the water. One night cost you $10k sgd.

Now to the shopping part, my family basically went on shopping spree. H&M, Zara, Mango, Etc. Their excuse? Nothing to do, shop lor. Okay, their money. I bought some too. hahaha. We went on the Desert safari tour, around dubai tour and lastly the cruise dinner. The Desert was astonishing. We went on the ride, it's called Dune Bashing. It's like car playing with the soft sand. The thrill is there. You won't feel scared on the outside, but when you how the car move, you will be afraid. Maybe the car will overturn. hahaha. Then it was bbq dinner. Food was okay, there were dancing too. Spectacular!

Trip around dubai was good too. Though it's 39C on the outside, We were spared of the temperature as we were on the car! We went out for some scenery though. It's the hottest period of my life. Even the Desert isn't so hot. Got alot of info through it. Tour guide was very friendly. The night cruise wasn't good at all. The food was average too. We waited till 9pm before our ship start. Why? Because were waited 1hour for a fucking bigshot local. Fuck their locals alright The night scenery isn't appealing. Didn't bother to take pictures though i took only a FEW.

The hotel suites in Dubai was good. Rimal Rotanna. The complimentary breakfast was godly. I ate till I'm 10/10 full for 3 straight days. That explains why i gotten more fat when i returned to singapore =/. Planed back to Doha to help my sister with her stuffs due to she's resigning from her company. That's what we were there for. To help carry her stuff to airport. It's like moving house okay. She had so many stuffs.

I think this post is short already. If i were to mention all, it will kill me. Too long. Oh wait, one last thing. Their bus stop are air-conditioned. WHAT THE HELL? rich until like that. Pictures will come in tomorrow. It's alot.

Now regarding my life in Singapore. I quite disappointed to hear some true comments about me even though i was in the wrong last time. I'm changing already. The fact that says, Everytime i talk to him, i also don't know use what mood to face him. This killed my days. Am i really such a bastard? I think so. My mouth never changed. Never at all. My god -.-.

One and only good news, I'm back to exercising hahahahaha. Registered for gym in Serangoon Community Centre. $15 for a month with Jilong. Excellent, I like the equipments there. This is officially my second phrase of slimming down. Good luck to myself.

Lastly, congratulations Jilong. Regarding what? Ask him and you shall know! Pictures will come in tomorrow, i promised.

With Love,
YaN

i'm finally updating.

2010-03-14T21:45:00.000-07:00

Ahh, after so long, i'm back to blogging aren't i? Well, since i havn't been blogging, this shall be one post full of text! well, as usual, alot of things happen lately, and i'm trying hard to be optimistic, rather then being sad.

I haven't been jogging for past 1 month already. Due to i was having this "part-time" which require huge commitment in a way that, i can only sleep 4~5 hours daily. It's farming of game items, which is a event which lasted for only 25days. i was using this 25days to farm for sgd. I'm proud to say, if i sold all of it, i can earn 2~3k sgd. How good is that? However, it wasn't easy money. It's pure hard work with determination. I paid with precious time for it.

Well, my first phrase of slimming down was over, The second phrase shall start today. Hopefully, i can slim down another 10kg just like my previous phrase. Herballife is also helping me towards achieving my goal. There's this meal replacement product which have a flavour call 'cookies & cream'. I love it. It taste so good. Sadly, it's not available in Singapore. My auntie have to go to Hongkong to buy it and then sell it to my family.

Well, regarding friend's issue. The clique was gone. Compromising of trust also results in the breakdown of the clique. I don't want to comment on that as this post is open to all, and partly i was the victim, and also my view may be biased.

Let me talk about trips that i will be going. On 10/3 i was on a 1 day trip to Malaysia. To my father's place. It was a Function for my father's company. He is one of the shareholder for the Restaurant. No, he isn't rich. In fact, it's the opposite, His fish farm business is on the verge of closing down. Therefore he has to borrow money from my mom to invest on other stuff, like the Restaurant.

It has been 3 years, ever since i last went malaysia. My comments will be, Malaysia really isn't advancing. Only few place had undergo massive changes. However , i like the serenity of the enviroment. It's really not as technology advance as us. It's peaceful out there, With mother nature beside you! I have taken some pictures which i will upload at the end of this post.

The food there is good.It's been very long ever since i have a splurge on seafood! Everything there, 80% are seafood. I went on a spree. No i wasn't guilty at all, although i ate 4 full plates of food. i didn't choose any staple food, which is rice, beehoon, noodles, etc. i have to thank my father for taking the time to take us to and fro. It's 3.5 hours of journey total up. The time spend there was also 3.5hours.

Next, i will be going on another trip to UAE. My sister's workplace. As she is quitting her work, my family would like to take the chance to visit there as well as other countries. The air tickets are very cheap, that's the reason why i'm going for another trip! It will be on the 24th of March till 30th or 31th. I have never been to a country that is out of Asia. This will and shall be the first. I hope i will be able to live through it, as i will be without my communication tools, which will be quite devastating to me.

I will be sure to take photos back and hopefully it will be good memories! However, after this trip, sadly i have to give up my room for my sister due to she's coming back. This means, i have to be sleeping in the living room.-__- I hate sleeping in the living room. Without a room of my own, Arghh, feels like without a personal space.( Don't get me wrong, isn't what you guys are thinking.)

Lastly, the one last thing that i would like to mention here would be a reunion outing with friends that i have never met for 3 years. It's a group of them, and i felt good meeting and seeing how each and everyone is doing, though it's very awakward and i hardly talk to anyone. It's my old bootes friends. I have to thank maple for this, lol. It would never have happen, if i didn't play maplestory 5years ago. Although there is definitly more negative impact then positive ones when playing maple, this are the fews good happenings of playing maple!

Alright, i think it's enough till here, i will blog again soon, I promise, real soon. It's time i do some soul-searching on myself, i have some decisions that i have to make for myself too. Alright pictures below and byebye!

Happy lunar new year!!!

2010-02-16T06:12:00.001-08:00

A very happy lunar new year to all of you. Haha, i haven't been blogging did i? Well, this lunar new year was quite boring for me. The family wasn't as close as ever. I didn't even see a full family reunion this time round. However the good thing is, as usual, i ask my cousins about their life and found out alot of stuffs.

One main intersting topic would be my younger cousin gerry. He is really a mini giant. He is 100+ kilograms and very tall. Don't scold me a backstabber just yet. I'm about to compliment him. He told me alot of girls like him. I was startled initially. However, after further conversation and analysing, i believe him. He has this one good character which i have to admit, i don't have. He is very thick skin.

He is really the joker among any clique he go out with. with his funny actions, words, people who are beside him, would surely laugh. That's the reason why girls will like him. Looks are just the first impression. After knowing each other for long, I believe the character of a person is more of a criteria then looks. I got amazed by my cousin. I will learn from him and develop such characteristic!

This is a short post, don't have mood to blog nowadays. Anyway, i hope i don't sound desperate. I'm not in a rush to find a girlfriend. It's just I want to experiences true teenage love. My mindset is already very adulthood. I hope it's just not too late yet. Alright, shall blog again soon.

Takecare all.
YaN

Pictures!

2010-02-07T09:20:00.001-08:00

For the first time, i'm going to post pictures in this blog! How wonderful! Well, i'm going to post my clique's photo! I must say, Pixon12's photo capablility is really awesome. Good quality! It's been awhile ever since i last blogged. I was lazy then, hahaha.

i was also quite busy with work. I had some surprise when i went out with the clique on saturday. Really, it was a surprise. Marcus will be going down this tuesday to appeal for Hnitec in Bishan ITE. I hope he can get it. It's good to have another partner in the school. =]

Recently, i have some family problems too. My oldest sister, she still can't get back up, It's been worst ever since she went Dubai to work. I understand that having depression isn't any kidding matter. However sometimes, the fact that she acts childishly really pissed people off. No matter what, She is always my sister. We as a family have to be united and stand for each other.

It's the first time i seen my father, weeping so pitifully in front of my family. I got completely stunned and disappointed. Stunned because my whole life, i didn't even seen him crying so pitifully, not even when my grandparents died. Disapointed because after my rebellious saga, came my sister's issue. My parents are always so worried for us. They have reached a age whereby they should have retired and enjoy life. Needless to say, they are definitely not enjoying their "retired" life.

Alright, Enough of talks. I shall leave my Philosophy talks to next post. i have some things that i haven't thought about, and i'll talk about it once i have think through. =) Let the pictures do the talking!

Ji Long

My fatty neck!

Marcus

Darren

Ivan

Alright, that's all for now. Goodnight peeps!

Chinese new year is near.

2010-02-01T09:19:00.000-08:00

It seems that i didn't change enough yet. my character building was a complete fail. My mouth is still as sharp as drills. Nevertheless, It's a new month, i've set my new targets. One would surely be character building, another would be weight management. I know i did lost weights, and it's quite amazing on how much i have lost in just 1.5months. But i feel it's not enough.

i really hope when school starts, i will be around 80 or even 78. Perhaps some may say it's not healthy losing weight this way, i care too much on my appearance now. I really do not want to go back to my old life. Escaping from reality, Feeling inferior to others, etc. I'm no doubt, still shy towards girls that i don't know. I'm not afraid to say that. I still felt inferior, lack of confidence. I tried asking from advise from some of the girls i previously known. Hopefully the advise will help me overcome it.

Anyway i was blog/facebook hoping today. I saw so many of my oldmates enjoying their teenage life. I really felt jealous of them. The way i used to treat them, it's really what i deserve now. How am i going to change my life? Am i really in full control of my life? I think i am, though there is tons of factors that you can't control that will affect your life. However, i will try to make it as good as possible.

I have some viewpoints that i want to share it here. I don't know previously did i mention it here. I'm quite into philosophy now. I'll show 2 simple examples here. There is one batch of 'O' level students that successfully applied for cashiers in fairprice. It's good. However surprisely, their parents came to complain regarding their break time. They complained about fairprice ill-treating new staff, didn't give them any time to eat. This clearly shows something.

It not only shows how protective parents are now. It also shows how parents and children's viewpoint are completely different. Let me elaborate further why. After one day or two day of work in fairprice, the child got back home. His/Her parent asked regarding what did he/she had for lunch. The child answered nothing. Parents would surely ask more, did fairprice not give you any time to eat? Did they ill-treat my child?
Perhaps the child can give a simple excuse, which is, i didn't eat because i was too busy/no time to eat/ i don't know whether i can eat/.

A simple remark, yet the next day, the parents came down and complained. How stupid can the parent be? Don't they know by doing such actions, they will make the child lose face in front of all the colleagues. I know they want the best for their child, they care for them. However, such actions are purely stupid. It really would hurt the child's pride.
Guess what, One of the new cashier's excuse on not to eat was because she usually take 1hour to eat, therefore 30minutes(cashier eating time) wasn't enough for her, so she choose to skip.

How ridiculous can that be. From these cases, i analysis and came up with a conclusion. Parents and teenage's viewpoint are very different. Although in parent's viewpoints, they want the best for their child, but they didn't think in their child's shoe and do things without much thinking, resulting in hurting their pride. In a teenage's viewpoint, sometimes when they are questioned by their parent,they thought coming up with a stupid excuse will do. They think it will solve the questioning. They didn't think of the chain effect that they caused. Parents may start question about responsiblity, why was my child ill-treated? Whose responsible for it? I think if both group of people could stand in each other's shoes, and think what did they do those actions, and learn the ability of thinking each other's viewpoint, then it would be perfect.

Well, the above conclusion is based purely on the example. I'm sure this is the going trend in parent's way of guiding their children. I have already developed the kind of ablilty to think on my parent's point of view. i know my life with my family will be better then ever. have you develop yours? x)

Goodnight.
YaN

Woot lovely

2010-01-28T19:06:00.001-08:00

Cool, I'm using itouch to blog. It's been long since I last blogged. I have a whole lots to mention here. The reason I didn't blog and am using itouch to blog is because my com is spoiled again and this time my motherboard is spoilt. This means wastage of money again lol. This is quite infuriating! damn! Initally I wanted to wait till end of march before repairing the desktop, however recenty I just bought my pixon12 ad u want to test out the system for any errors as the 1 to 1 exchange is only valid for 7 days.

This is actually outrageous. Everytime I want to stop computer usage, something would crop up. I know all this are just excuse and I still lack the determination to do it. Anyway I will definitely cut down my usage on desktop. Okay now to the pixon12 they I bought. I"m quite delighted. I saved $150 bucks for pixon12. Let me explain why. I found out that buying it online only cost 398 while buying it in any retail store cost $548. Because I wasn't 18 and above, therefore I wasn't allow to deal it online. I then complain about such loopholes in the system and so on. Though they have their stand too, but I won in the end. Consumer pawns! They honoured me the price. Comparing itouch and pixon12, in terms of the touch sensor, itouch is definitely the e
clear winner. Pixon"s camera is godlike though.

Now regarding school! I got posted to bishan ite business admin. Initally I wanted simei ite no matter what. However after sorting out my thinking, I accepted it. I'm quite elated too. Now that everything is good, I shall treasure every moment of my life! My next post shall be about some philosophy in life. I realize some things and thought about it. I shall end it here. Typing with Itouch isn't that great. Goodbye all. Hopefully the next time I blog will be with computer!

Lalala, Lalala!

2010-01-22T09:06:00.000-08:00

I'm back from jogging! Previously i heard this customer who saw me jogging frequently on the field track near my house. He gave me some advise and told me that when i'm jogging, i use my mouth to breathe in, thus making my throat extremely thirsty and feel uncomfortable. Well that's true and i heed his advise and it's good. I won't feel uncomfortable, however there is one issue. My pants are falling! LoL, that's actually good news huh? hahahaha

He also told me to run alternative days instead of jogging almost everyday. I find that quite convincing and good. My body jolly well needs the rest and alternate jogging days doesn't mean i will slim down slower, it will however allow my leg to rest. These beloved customers, they are the ones who never fail to brighten up your day no matter how bad it was.

It's been one month ever since i started jogging, the results are clear. I'm slimming down, even though i took rest in between. I lost 6 to 7 kilograms for the month. There is this saying in chinese, "台上十分钟，台下十年工。" training 10 years of hard work, just to perform for 10minutes. In my case, i have heard quite alot of people saying i have slim down. The hard work that i put in, it's jolly well worth it. Though it's hard, but it's really worth it. Those comments like
'you slim down already'. It really makes you feel satisfactory, boosting your determination, pushing you harder.

I know when it comes to Chinese New Year, i will prove to my relative that i meant what i mention. Determination wins all. If you put in the effort, there will be results. I'm quite sure this will be true for most of us. Okay, enough of my weight management stuff already. Let me blog about another issue which i'm quite concern about.

When i went to work yesterday, i worked morning shift. I had a talk with one of the merchandiser, to cut things short, I found out that she hold a master degree certificate back in Myanmar. She studied from young till she's 32. Now, she's in Singapore studying a 6months accounting course. Her master degree certificate are not related to accounting at all. They are science degrees. She mention back then, even with a master cert, she could only earn $100 sg bucks, which is 70k Myanmar money a month. The worst is, she have to sign a 10 year contract with the company. I really find that very unbelievable. I'm not sure whether she's lying or not.

My point of this paragraph is, in other country, what's the point of studying so hard when the pay you get is so low? Is Myanmar cost of living really so low? I mean in Singapore, i know that Certificate is almost a must to have a higher stand in singapore. The difference between those with Certificate and those with none is huge. However all this is questionable only if what the merchandiser mention is true. It's very much worth reflecting for me.

Alright i borrowed 3 books from the library. It's a trip worthwhile. I'll be reading it now. Shall stop here already.

Goodnights all.
YaN

Library, here i come!

2010-01-19T10:05:00.000-08:00

Hi, i'm here to blog again! I went to jog despite my leg not fully recovered yet. Initially, it was bad, i couldn't jog. My left leg felt wobbly and my right leg hurts. How bad can it be huh. However, I persevere and try to jog. It work! My leg could withstand it after trying. I found out that my stamina is increasing, however that isn't very good news. Because i couldn't sweat as much as i used to with the same speed. My body will feel lazy if i jog faster though my heart could take it. I don't know why is this happening. I tried to jog faster today and i sweat a whole lot. Believe it or not, i think of girl whenever i'm giving up on jogging faster. LOL

Okay, i decided it's time i improve my english, start of this week, i'll be going to the library every week. I shall make this a complusory routine. My english isn't good. It wont help if i want to go polytechnics. Starting early is good. Dear Clique, It's time we improve our english! It's also because i got real bored over computer gaming. I really lost interest on it. I have to find another hobby to spend my time. I think reading is good!

Actually, i want to congratulate Ji Long on his change of attitude towards study. It seems that what his doing is way beyond my expectations. He's making a time table on how to spend his time for the whole week. However I would have to disagree on this. I know we ex computer addicts hate time-tables as we were never on time, but making our life like a robot isn't good. Perhaps making a time-table just for study hours will be fine. A time-table on every moments of our time spend isn't good. I hope he will excel in his studies and enjoy to the fullest after 'O' levels. Anyway, this are just my views, perhaps having a time-table on time spend will best suits your character, who knows. haha.

Ivan, i shall talk about you too. You now what's the issue in your family. Being in the clique, you heard my nagging. You by now, should know the importance of studies. You promise you will start studying after end of CNY. I trust you will do that. These are not my result. I'm just trying my best to help you. Afterall, it's your result in the end. Promise is just a way to help you. It's not as though you are doing for me. I know you understand this Ivan. Sorry ivan, i know you are still young, but it's time to study hard, as this is the cruelty of society. In Singapore, if you want to have a good income, You have to study.

Only the few minority will succeed. However that requires creativity, the right chance, the right moment. Every and every small factors that makes them successfull. Don't procastinate and say you will be the one. I'm 90% sure it won't be you. I'm not looking down on you, however it's very hard to be successful without studying in Singapore. I have faith in you Ivan. Try to communicate more in your family. I too am improving my relationship with my family. Take the first step, try and use the soft way to communicate. Your life is good too, enjoy it to the fullest!

Alright, i talk about you both, what about mine? Hahah, I'm aware of my problem and i already mention alot here in the previous post. Whatever it is, You two are my real good friends. Really, it's the 'guailan' that i made, that make us closer. Think properly, isn't it true? hahaha, I really don't have a large social circle, So whatever it is, i'll will try my best to help you guys. Whatever issues you guys have, tell me, i'm both a good listener, and also a good adviser. I'm not boosting =/.

That's all for now. Goodbye all.
YaN

Reflecting our actions.

2010-01-17T08:06:00.000-08:00

Hello readers, I'm here to blog again! Well, today i have a came up with a topic, which i want to talk about. Let me blog relationships? Ahahaha, Perhaps it isn't the right place to voice out. But i actually didn't think there is any other place to have this discussion in mind as i'm lazy to write it out. Besides, i'm not too sure how girls think. I'm a complete retard in their thinkings. So if any kind girl out there could correct my mistake, i would greatly appreciate it. That is if you happen to read this post, and kind enough to give me advise.

Alright, how would i treat her? Tough question eh. What i think in a relationship is, Trust. Trust is the most important in relationship. Secondary would be compromising with each other, understanding each other. With these 3, wouldn't a relationship last long? Ahaha, easy to say, hard to do eh. How many guys out there can actually do all this? Perhaps minority, and quite a handful of guys have this " 大男人注意”。Sorry, i don't know what's the english version of it. I spend 30minutes looking for the translation, yet i can't find it. -.-

Well, i used to have this too, until i experiences it myself and know wow, i have to change this. It's 2010 already, men and women are equal. Suddenly i got nothing to say. I forgotton what i want to mention here. -.- Oh, It's hard to find someone compatible to you. Therefore we have to compromise and learn to accept each other's shortcomings. Unless you are real lucky, getting someone who can tolerate that, then you shall be the world's happiest man.

Will you treat her as though, she's your only precious in this world? Will you shower your love for her? Will you show her concern when she's sick? Will you care for her? Will you know when is the time to manage a relationship in such a way, both parties will have his/her own free space. Which means there won't be any gluing to each other. Will you compromise? Will you try to stand in her shoes when you are quarrelling with her? Will you be sweet to her for long and not only initially? This is a question for me. Perhaps to some of you too. Well, i know i do and i will.

Some of you may laugh, LOL so fat still want girlfriend, toad lusting for swarm's flesh eh? That's the reason why i'm trying to slim down, though there is other reason as well. Laugh all you want, but this is my life afterall, i'm in full control of it and sooner or later, i will succeed!
Ahahaha, Okay, i'll be ending here, and i will update this topic again tomorrow as suddenly my mind is completely blank.

Life is good if you live good. =]

2010-01-16T01:15:00.000-08:00

Hello readers, i'm here to blog again! Well i have a topic to blog about thanks to Sixu. Due to yesterday she saw my blog and gave me sudden comments, i couldn't stop laughing. Ahahaha, Hi sixu.

Well let me show you whats her sudden comments. Here goes.

Zhiyuan, i know this is kinda random. but after reading your blog. like now, i feel very happy for you xD(is this really random?)but i feel really happy for you. cause you finally sort outthe thingsi n your life (i heard you stopped schooling last year). and are working towards your goals. i hope you really can continue to be self-motivated to work hard towards them (unlike me HAHA). ;D

HAHAHAHAHAH, LAUGH DIE ME. sorry sixu, sometimes it's good to have a good laugh over it. =x. I know you won't mind! I had a chat with both sixu and ivy yesterday. It's good to have some chats with secondary schoolmates once in awhile. I enjoyed it. =]\

Alright now back to my stuffs, My right knee, sadly the veins are injured. I'm told that i am to avoid carrying heavy stuffs and wear a knee cap when i go jogging. This is terrible, because my work require me to carry heavy stuff. However, i'll see what can be done and hopefully it will recover. I'm having some little treats for myself now. Eating chocolates, fried stuff(not chicken) once in awhile. However because of my knee, i havn't been jogging for the past 2 days. I hope ill be going today!

I can't wait for myself to slim down, and at the same time, school to start. It's like i'm looking forward to starting of school. It's really quite not me. But i'm changing =]. This is me now, the new me. Oh and also i have to say this. Though i can type like this here, Back in reality, i'm still as "guailan" as ever. However i know when is the time to stop and start. No worries.

I love my life. Humans only desire more, which is why there is so much complaining, hunger for more, greed, etc etc. However i'm contented now. Perhaps i have another request? Girlfriends. Ahahah, thats for now. One life, Live it. No matter how much you have wasted previously. That's okay, perhaps you may think it's a little bit late. But start now. Think positively, Everything will work fine. The path will be automatically created for you. That's for those with no family problem/financial problem and yet wants to rebel.

I am once like that, and therefore i know. I analyst my wrongdoings, though i'm too thick-skinned in the reality. I shall mention it here. I beg for forgiveness. From my family, my friends, those who known me.

Fellow peeps, if you guys have any problem, you can always talk to me. I will try my best to counsel you. I'm not showing off. But i really do have quite alot of experiences and i am so willing to share it with all of you. Lets just say, giving some additional advise to you, so that you can clearly see the path/solution down your road. My road is starting, how's your road going?

Goodbye,
Love, YaN

My right knee isn't recovering.

2010-01-13T09:22:00.000-08:00

Hello, today just didn't feel like blogging, Have a few things in mind to talk, however am really not into the mood to blog. I shall blog another day. Alright all goodbye. +)

I'm feeling soooo good!

2010-01-11T10:23:00.000-08:00

Hello beloved readers!! A very good midnight to you all! I guess from my title, you guys can see that i'm elated! Well, it's because my life is improving and improving! I have tons to write here today. Alright, i shall begin now.

Firstly, it's 'O' level result day! Congratulations to those who did well! Well this is for marcus.
Dear Marcus, i heard you didn't do well, i'm hoping these infomations are fake! I hope to hear from you soon. Hopefull i can guide you along. =) I think i don't have a lot of 'O' level friends this year do i? Haha, anyway, Congratulations!

Well another good news would be, my left ankle recovered! I went jogging today for around 40minutes! Looks like my right kneecap isn't recovering well. I gotten gastric pain today while running. Perhaps it's because i ate at 5pm today and nothing else later on. I went jogging at 12am after having a good talk with my mum. =) I'll continue the mum's story later on.

Anyway i have got 1 sad news. When i was jogging, i happen to saw my ex schoolmates. The moment they saw me and i saw them, I didn't went up and greet them. It's quite disappointing to me. I'm shy zz.For anyone's information, those were girls! Therefore i'm shy, not egoistic! I saw some chinese and indian teenage quarreling just now. Haha kind of entertaining after my jog. So happens, the chinese clique was my old schoolmate's clique.

Third good news would be i'm going back to study! I have successfully apply for the JAE application! I chose my first choice as accounting. I didn't want it initially, however, after knowing that it could get me in business management in polytechnics, i accepted it instantly. Out of the 12courses that i choose, 9 were business course, and all of them would get me into business management in polytechnics!

When you know your directions in life, you will head it on straight, and do it wholeheartedly. Well i finally found mine, have you found yours? I shall talk abit regarding sunday's outing with "neversaydie" our clique's name!! We went East Coast and it was quite fun. The reason i mention here ie because i want to bring out one question i asked everyone there. " What is your top 5 priorites in your life now?" Well i will skip other's answer. My answer would be as follows.

1)Family/relatives
2)Friends
3)Slim down
4)Studies
5)Happiness

Alright, now the last reasons worth rejoicing! My mum bought this healthy product call " Herballife". I didn't believe at first, and refuse to try it, until the conversation with mum today.
She successfully convinced me in trying. After looking on articles and good examples, i'm more into it. I will try it tomorrow. It is a weight loss diet program. I found quite alot of stuff that surprised me. Losing weight is long-term, short term would means losing water/proteins which is lean muscle, instead of the fats we want to lose. =)

Actually it's not a program, it's just a meal replacement. 2 meals of that product, and 1 normal meal. i will slim down in long-term. As long as you are willing to do it, you will succeed. It's not just talk and no action. I have successfully shed away 5~6 kilograms already. This is from pure jogging and also, i rest for 1.5weeks before i started jogging today.

Okay, i shall stop here. It's 2.50am already.
Goodnight all, good day to you all.
YaN

Crap.

2010-01-08T06:47:00.000-08:00

Hello all, i'm here to blog again. The reasons i didn't blog for the past few days, was because i was lazy, busy, and playing games. I went to play Luna online private server. It's very fun and i could very well manage my time usage on it. Things are some how turning up and down for me.

Well you see, firstly, i injured both of my legs. -.- My left ankle was sprained and my right knee couldn't withstand my body weight, thus when i try to jog, it would hurt. I spend over $60+ bucks on my leg, but i think it's worth it, afterall, i found out quite alot of things. Although, i think i stopped jogging for 1 week already, but i found out my walking pace was faster, alot faster. It seems that if you undergo some jogging, your heart could take a faster walking pace, meaning you would not sweat when you walk faster,

Before i started jogging, the moment i tried walking fast, i will be sweating as though i just came back from a downpour. Even when i injured my legs, i could walk faster then other people. Sometimes it is this small little stuff in your life, that brights up our life, every little moments, combining them, and they would be pieces of happiness which will make our life so much happier.

I hate to stop jogging, i want to slim down as soon as possible, I just hope my legs can recover faster, then i can join back kq and kc every night. By the way, 2 pieces of good news. One would be my application for army deferment was approved. This means i can go back to studies. I went down to simei ITE today, asked and clarify about some doubts. It sure feel good to be able to study again. However, sadly there were limited course in simei, i may have to go to other ITEs for some courses that i want.

The second good news would be my relationship with my family is improving! Ahahahaha, Thats very rare and i know it will continue to improve! My eldest sister came back from Middle East today, and some how i was quite happy to see her. I feel blessed, and happy that i was born in Singapore, and in my family.

Perhaps this is another good news of mine, my handphone contract will be ending this january.
I was planning to get LG Crystal at first, however at second thought, after checking out the other phones, i was planning to get Sony Satio. It has a very powerful camera and that's the reason why i'm getting that. As for other applications, my itouch will cover for it. Lets see whether during hat period of time, will there be another good phone that will interest me.

Alright, i think i will stop here, Okay lets hope the next time i blog, it will be as happy as this one.
Goodbye all.

Hi lynn.

2010-01-02T09:24:00.000-08:00

Hi, i'm back to blogging after 1hr 30min of previous posting. Actually i do have something to mention here. Just that i planned to save it till tomorrow. Then, got force by someone to blog. No choice, have to blog.

Chinese new year is around the corner already. Is everyone ready to take angpows? Personally i didn't want chinese new year to arrive so soon, as previously during the ritual for my ancestor, i told quite alot of relatives that i'm jogging. i'm quie afraid that i wouldn't slim down by then. I did have some results now, i did slim down, and i have people coming to me saying i slim down already.

No matter what, i'm still afraid. It's like if i didn't have obvious result, i feel like skipping chinese new year. Thats bad, but i think everyday of jogging won't fail me. I'm sure ill show results by then. One more month to slim down before facing them! I CAN DO IT! Anyway, chinese new year, it means spring cleaning. Which also means good-game. My house is as messy/dirty as you can imagine. Arghh, I hate to do housework! Anyway, who doesn't? haha.

My relationships with my family is getting better and better. I'm sure this has to do with my attitude change too. I did tried to make amendments, and i think they can feel it too. Everything is perfect now. I just needed a larger social cirle. With that, Everything will be perfect in my life. I would be a very contented man. I wonder if my pa's fish farm business is recovering or have to take the last resort, which is to close it down. I'm sure he will be sad, he spend his youth in this farm, it's his second house, his sweat are spilled all over the farms. LOL =x I'm not suppose to laugh when i'm typing this. -.-

Oh did i mention my eldest sister is coming back for chinese new year? Haha, i missed her too. It seems she has became a real lot more independant. Although she's still suffering from depression,
but i'm sure she has recover while she is out there in Middle East. I did heard that she got some problems there, and my family was comforting her as much as we can. I know she's one who depend alot on friends too. I'm one too. We have this common characteristic. So usually, her friends will help alot in comforting her too.

Maybe i'll start using facebook too. My phone is spoilt though, which means i can't upload picture already. Perhaps once i get a new phone, i'll use facebook too. Time to enjoy my life after slimming down! No more feeling of inferior to girls! I feel good~ LOL . Seriously every single day to me now is heaven. I'm enjoying the best out of it and hopefully, the rest of the year will be as enjoyable as of now, regardless of i'm going studies or army!

Okay i think i shall stop here, Enough of wordy words already. You see Bendan Lynn, I'm smart, i can blog until so long despite blogging just 2hours before.=x Hahahah, Alright bye all.!

Bright day.

2010-01-02T07:25:00.000-08:00

Haha, my day got brighten up in the morning, marcus will be going escape with us. Thats good news, We enjoyed alot there, and i promise to you guys, we will have more fruitful, fun outing in the future. The second issue that brighten up my day was, the ticket for escape cost only $9 because it's on promotion and today happens to be the last day.

I remember i mention, saturday will be a no-jogging day, however i continued to go jogging for today and i think there is some problems with my legs already, so most probably i won't be going down to jog tomorrow. I have to rest and massage my legs, hahaha. Another 50mins of jogging today, not bad at all.

By the way, congratulations to ivan, who just gotten his new iphone 3G. hahahah, i bet he is over the moon! My charisma isn't going better, judging from today's outing, i'm still as "guailan" as ever. What the hell, i can't seem to control, lol.

Alright i got nothing more to mention here, i hope "never say die" enjoyed today's outing.
Goodnight!

Enjoying every moment of my life.

2010-01-01T11:06:00.000-08:00

Hello all, a very belated happy new year too all of you out there!. Everybody's school is starting. I felt so happy for them. It's time to put their interest back to studies. At the same time, i hope army will allow me to defer, so that i can go back to studies. Nobody out there have any idea how much i want to study now. I feel good!

Some points i have to make, this is quite bad. without school, with my current life, it's extremely hard to make new friends. I'm lacking of friends. I have to admit this, right now my circle of friends are extremely small. However, things will change, i know if i want to do it, i will do it. But it seems like i forgotton how to socialise with strangers. LOL, how retard can i be. -.-

Hopefully school start, i will and sure to make new good friends! Secondary school friends, i already missed so much of them. it is impossible i will fall another time. Once bitten, twice shy. I got bitten like so many times liao. This time it hit me hard enough to wake up to my senses. I can't always be a computer hero! Someday, somehow, i will and have to socialise. It's not as though i'm a loner. I'm not.

Anyway, i tried 50minutes of jogging today, both me and Jun did it. We were so proud of it. It seems as though currently, only Jun and me can go jogging as for the others, they have school to attend already. It's okay, both he and me just hope that we can reduce our fat and be fit! Perhaps he has a different aim for slimming down, but i know deep down, somehow, it concerns about girl.

Hahahah, Tomorrow will be going escape with ji long, ivan and perhaps marcus. I know we will enjoy tomorrow's outing. Because i'm trying to have more charisma you see, therefore , i will not 'guailan' unless i'm attacked. ^_^ Actions speaks louder then words. I know it's hard, It's like a very very old habit of mine already, But there is always a start, and i will start tomorrow. Alright i'm ending here. Good day to all. Enjoy your life out there. Just when you think how worst can your life be, think of the others in africa, when they even have to worry for their 3 meals, you will feel blessed. =]

YaN, With love. =]

It's finally happening!

2009-12-30T10:46:00.000-08:00

Oh my GOD! I could finally jog continously non-stop for 8whole rounds.I LOVE MY STAMINA LA <3.Although it was real slow, but it's faster then walking of cause. I DID IT TODAY!Well let me share it here. When i just started jogging, whenever i tried to jog non-stop, not only will i feel breathless, my leg will also feel extremely strained.Soon, it's different, i could jog at a slow pace, without feeling breathless, my heart could take it, only thing is my legs felt tired, but i withstand it and taha! I did it!

This is something worth rejoicing! Well at least for me! To think that i got paranoid at junks food right now, looking at the nutrition facts when i wanted to consume/buy something.Even milk, i also look at the energy,carbohydrates,calories, etc. WoW, i feel the change in me, It's changing!
Achieving this wasn't one's man doing, It was my friends, they were so encouraging to me, They gave me alot of morale, boosting my perseverance and determination.

I got a complete change towards diet. Oh my lord, what really made me decide to do this. Is it really girl? Or it's because i was sick of computer gaming, hiding in virtual world? Or maybe it's girl afterall.I felt overjoyed, no regrets at all! Regardless of what reasons, i'm on the right track!

Actually regarding yesterday's post i would like to edit and retype here about something which i mention there. I'm not one who need to divert my interest and find things to do. I'm one who, once set my aim on something, i will try my best to achieve it by hook or by crook. I will get very focused on it, even skipping outing with friends, just to do it. I will try to change this type of attitude. I can't afford to sacrifice my friend's outing. They are extremely important to me. Maybe this is also one of computer addict's symptom? Getting to our aims by hook or by crook? I will try to get more info on this.

Ji Long, if you see this, please automatically answer me tomorrow. Same to darren and marcus.
Do marcus even visit this blog? Hahaha who knows.Okay i think i should stop here. Though i have much more to say, but now is not the time. Strangely, when i was still playing games, everytime i want to blog, i would not blog, or if not, just a very short post. Now i got so much to mention here. Haha.

Good day to all.! happy new year, Look forward to thursday's outing!

Directing my interest elsewhere.

2009-12-29T22:22:00.001-08:00

Firstly, i have to say thanks to kayla for helping me with this blog! See, darren, i give people their credits okay! Okay after that, i shall blog about my stuffs! School for most of my friends is starting.

Somehow, i felt sad, due to there will be even lesser time to spend together. Nevermind, i believe our clique will last long. Lets hope this coming thursday we can tontogether and have fun together!. My clique of friends, they are ji long, ivan, darren, marcus, plus me. I'm sure we will have more friends that will join this clique next time!

Actually, i wanted to blog yesterday, however was too tired. Hence i decided to blog today. I have a talk with kaiqian on monday after jogging. He said what's most important for a guy to have would be charisma. I agreed on that.

It seems that my charisma is turning into the negative side of charisma. Which is ' guai lan ' , i'm sure any of you, who talk to me, will know. I hope i can change this ' guai lan ' and develop some real charisma. Having a average look, with good charisma, it will be easy to court girls. hahah As long as one could entertain, making the girl laugh, i believe there is higher chance.

Alright, now to my title. I found out quite long ago, that i must have a interest to spend my time,
if not i would feel very bored. Thus i was used sticking to maple all the time. But yet i refused to do something about it until now. -.-

My interest now is to slim down, as i mention, i'm looking forward to exercising everyday.However, that isn't enough, as it only takes 1hour of my life in that. I have to find other interest to do. Hugging on the computer everyday isn't good.

Perhaps i can try reading books, chatting with friends on phone, go out more often, read on some articles, etc etc. Whatever it is, i just have to find it.

I felt quite empty yesterday when i went jogging alone yesterday. Both kaiqian and Jilong couldn't make it, thus i went alone. It was very demoralising, however i went ahead with it.
After jogging, there was this uncle who sitting on the bench where my bottle was. He took the first step and chat with me.

We chatted about army, he was saying how hard army used to be. He said he was in army for 6years, before he ord. That was WoW. He was going AWOL, fighting with others, and etc. I enjoyed the chat somehow, as it can not only kill time, and also share with me his experiences in army. After he was gone, i did some pushups before heading home.

Oh yeah, i shall declare saturday as a No-Jogging day! I have to rest my legs, hahaha. Saturday was also my outing day with friends. It was also my only off day for work. So many reasons to have a No-Jogging day, why not.

Okay, i have to go work soon. Have a good day all. Quite surprised that there is still readers in this blog, I thought there will be few.
Okay byebye ^^.

Directing my interest elsewhere.

2009-12-29T22:22:00.000-08:00

Enjoy the small little moments happening in our lifes.

2009-12-28T09:41:00.000-08:00

Few things that i want to mention here.
I was working with a headache today, and then it rained.
Bad day, though i was still looking forward to my jogging period.
It's kinda funny, i'm looking forward to jogging every now and then.

I'm enjoying the process of jogging and i simply <3 it.
Anyway while i was working, i came to see this particular girl.
She was 1.5 times larger then me, her whole neck was black,
so was her chin area,

This is a case of Acanthosis nigricans, it is a brown to black,
poorly defined, velvety hyperpigmentation of the skin.
It is usually found in body folds, armpits,neck and etc.
I'm having such diseases.

It's usually happen on people who are fat.
However, mine case wasn't so bad.
Its quite slight.
I want to cut down fats to cure this diseases.

The only way to cure it, is by slimming.
When i look at the girl, it totally turned me off.
I can imagine how people will look at me,
if i continue to grow fater.

It seems that i'm still very egoistic.
From quite alot of examples, i can still sense that i refuse to interact.
Sigh, this is very bad, but i promise i will try to change.
I <3 you all, my friends, family, relatives!

Special thanks to my sister, who bought my a new shoes.
Seeing that my shoes are spoiling,
and i'm jogging, determined to do so,
She bought for me today.

I felt very touched, despite the way i treated her last time.
I did said thank you, and i love you my sister.
Thanks for not giving up on me.
I promise our family ties will be better then ever.

Lastly, i am finally getting on with life,
I came to realise alot of stuffs.
I am willing to let go, in order to achieve another stuff.
This is what i have achieved.

I blog, not to describe about my daily lifes,
It is however, about my experiences in life,
my life, my family, my friends. <3
Goodbye.

Tired

2009-12-27T05:40:00.000-08:00

The ritual for my ancestor was over.
It was a 2day program.
Due to i was having a headache on friday, i went there around 7pm.
Once i reach, my family and i ate dinner and the ritual started.

There were 3 monks chanting and we have to always hold 3 joss stick
and have to kneel, stand for the process.
It's a very relaxing thing actually,
There is at least 30min break before each ritual start.
The ritual only last for 30~45minutes.

It was never a whole family.
Quite alot of family members could'nt make it.
I realised to make one such ritual,
you have to have alot of manpower.
Yesterday which was saturday,
My whole family invited guest for dinner at night,
There were a total of 49 tables, woah.

Thats real lot, considering the tentage is on carpark and it's quite huge though.
People who don't know, may think that it's a 7-month event. lol
This is how huge that dinner was.
Also, my family bought a $7888 stick house for our ancestor.
Can you imagine burning $7k+ in 10minutes time?

I know when it comes to religon, it is very sensitive.
I just felt painful for the money. =/
There is alot wastage of food used in the ritual,
i felt so wasted, but yet i could do nothing,
as our family doesn't eat those,
it's purely bought for the ritual.

Well today, was quite boring, woke up, com for awhile,
then i was syncing my itouch for musics.
I stole my sister's hard disk previously to copy the music files over.
hahah, i miss those old songs.
They were very much worth mesmerizing.

6th day of jogging later.
i'm having muscle cramps all over.
Especially my arms, very very painful.
However i will continue to jog and slim down gradually!
I really regretted eating so much last time.

I am already beginning to think my body is failing.
I hope i will be given a second chance.
I want to keep fit and have a healthy life.
I have read some of the symptoms of possible illness i may have,
and i'm very much traumatized.

Lets hope i an cut down on my fats!.
Jian Fei <3

GoodBye.

Surprised

2009-12-25T10:43:00.000-08:00

It's the fouth day of jogging already.
I can't believe that i, YaN will do so much for it.
You are so far away from me, yet i fall in love for you.
Besides, it's all one sided feeling.
The chancess of together is like 0.001%.

It's the first time after 3years, that i'm back to exercising
and pushing myself for it, automatically going for jogging everyday.
It's also the first time, i'm doing it for a girl.
regardless of what, the chances are real slim, it doesn't matter.
I have to slim down.

I want a change in my lifestyle.
I'm very, seriously very stunned that i am doing something
for a girl.
Getting me to exercise is like mission impossible.
I used to tell my clique of friends,
If ever i slim down, it will be for the sake of women.

I thought i was just saying it, to escape reality of slimming down.
Right now, i'm doing it, i'm really doing it!
I have to keep it up!
I want to look good, have more opposite gender of cliques.

Whatever it is, i have made my confession,
I love you.
Good bye..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

2009-12-22T10:41:00.002-08:00

Happy birthday Cheah Ji Long, Brothers forever!

Shall blog more tomorrow. :D

Only you..

2009-12-18T07:01:00.001-08:00

我爱你....我只要你...

This is for you.

2009-12-16T07:33:00.000-08:00

This is for you!
i blogged!.

I bought ps3 yesterday.
i think i got scammed though.
But nevermind, thats not the point.

Well, i want to slim down!
I have actually something in mind.
I seriously thought of slimming down.
Actually, i wanted to go army first,
due to i wanted to slim down before i go to school.

I felt inferior to girls.
Thats so bad, no confidence at all. -.-
Now i have another mindset.
Maybe i can try exercising every night.
I will then register for school.
Well all that is if my army letter don't come by end of december.

i wanted to be fit when i'm in school, i wanted to interact with girls too.
well i am trying it right now, and hopefully i will succeed.
Night-jogging <3 ;D
After buying ps3, i have no money for my daily expense now.-.-
Noe, i have to ask money from my parents already. saddddd.

Lets hope my life will get better.
I have been talking some life experiences to my friends too.
I felt its nice to have a talk with them,
as they are like my mirror, walking through what i face last time.
I find it interesting to talk about life principles with anyone.

I hope my current clique of friends will stay as it is,
for i <3 my clique of friends, and we will always enjoying all of our outings!
Okay,i'm done with blogging.
byebye !

It's LATE!

2009-12-07T11:43:00.000-08:00

It's 3.43 am now.
Well, i couldn't sleep, and there is nothing i could do.
Yeah, so i'll blog to kill time.

My god, i just gotten viral infection.
I think i jolly well deserved it.
Even when i was having sore throat,
I continued to eat junk food,
resulting viral infection.

Anyway i recovered and was on mc for 2days.
That's shit, because those aunties will nag/ask
why you sick? i have to cover your duties during your 2days of mcs.
Blah.. Blah..
I hate that.

Past few days, i was doing absolutely nothing.
Going out also seems to be bored.
There is like nothing to enjoy out there.
When I'm inside, it would be computer.
Never ever will i take a book and read it.
How boring my life is!

My mum went oversea anyway.
Seems to me i have changed.
I used to love it when my mum go overseas.
It would mean freedom.

Now, i'm not one bit happy.
Instead i felt bored.
My house is like a hotel.
My relationship with my sister isn't going any better.
Sigh..

Okay, i shall stop here.

Goodnight all.

Ps
Where are youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu?
I miss you so muchhhhhhh =[

straighten thinking.

2009-12-01T08:03:00.000-08:00

Ha, i'm blogging now.!

I want to go back studies.
I love to study.
These few days, always work work work!
If ever i have off, it will be out!
I didn't stay home and mug computer anymore!

I discuss with my mom too.
I told her if my Ns letter don''t come by end of december,
I may want to get back to studies, ITE.
The other option, would be after army, i go ahead with private.
Initially, she was giving me a negative answer.
She still sense that i'm hook on the computer.

However, after i told her, my next course that i'll be studying wouldn't be computer anymore.
It seems that she once again believed in me.
Thank god.
I lost this trust several years ago.
I want to earn it back!
I found out, my interest was in business!

I want to study more about business!
COMPUTER IS JUST SHIT.
Though i was years behind my friends, but i will make it!=]
ever since, i went full time work,
without any studies, i was idling around.
then i fully realise the pressure of a adult,
Its about money.

Okay, Hope my path onwards will be great!
My beloved mum...
Shes always so good, supporting me.
yet i showed her my stupid attituide.
No matter how old you are, all mothers will treat their children as kids.
Forever taking care of them, worrying for them.
I love my mother <3.

Next will be my sister!
They were so good to my previously!
All my branded stuff were bought by my sister.
I will try to be better.
I was so cold to my family eversince 2009.
I love my sisters too!

This is for lynn de,
Bendannnnnnnn lol.
so cute ;D
Hope you enjoyed the song.
My first time singing for a girl.
<3

Bye Bye.

2009-11-08T03:04:00.001-08:00

It's been 3month plus ever since i blogged.
Suddenly i felt like blogging, so here i come!

I have been pondering some question these few weeks.
It seems that i have finally realised what was my character like.
Through great experiences, interaction with friends, Reflection,
made me have a major change in my life.

Alright, I was really, i mean it, really a complete loser.
i would make use of friends, often beg them when i need help,
and to my surprise, when they needed help, i won't usually help unless it's very important,
and i did it very reluctantly.
I didn't want it that way.
But in my mind,
i didn't realise that my actions really would make my friends detest me.

It was friends, good friends who told me countless time,
and after doing countless of reflections, i realise i was wrong.
I have spoilt so many many and many of my relationship with my friends.
Its time i have a change! And i mean it!

Another would be, i was stubborn as a mule.
I always have the mindset of "I AM IN THE RIGHT! THEY ARE ALL WRONG!."
Even if i'm at fault, i will find many many reasons to push the blame to others,
or have tons of excuse comforting myself, which is,
" i admit it was my fault due to maintaining of relationships", etc.
Stubborness really caused me whole lot of troubles.

These 2 points clearly show that i was a self-centered person.
Only until recently, i still find excuses,
reasons to run away from the reality about being self-centered.
I thought i was a good friend, a very very good one.
It was all a thought.

I was also egoistic, I felt people will come to me to make friends with me.
I don't have to befriend them, they will automatically come to me.
I was so damn wrong!
Thats the reason why i often don't social and talk much to my friend's friend.
To add up, contradictingly, i lack self-esteem, and confidence.

Being fat really made me lost a lot of confidence and self-esteem.
That made me shy to talk to girls or getting to know new girl friends.
I still remember during secondary school days,
when i was in secondary 1 till end year secondary 2.

Back then i was really talking to girls more then i talk to guys.
I have more girl friends then boy friends.
Every night, i will never fail to have phone talk with girls.
Things changed gradually,Times are different now.

My god, i have so many weak points in my characteristic!
Of cause, i did another reflections.
What made me into this?
Why was i like that?

The answer was simple.
Computer Gaming.
I got hooked into Maplestory on secondary 2.
From that point on, my life was changed drastically.
After school, i returned home straight, affecting my time spend with friends.
My school work deproved alot.
The worst of all, I created for myself tremendous stress and family problems.

Let me explain why,
Firstly, i had computer addiction, thus creating alot of family problems.
Souring my relationships with between my sister and me,
I became very violent when my gaming hours get affected.
My mum really tried her best to help me.
She's really at her end's wit.

Still, i didn't give in.
I was a hypocrite then, giving false promise just to play Maplestory.
I lie,i even steal money from my house to go lan gaming.
My mum...
I really felt very apologetic towards her.

In the game, Maplestory, i was had quite a reputable name, thus making me feel
Superior towards Fellow maplers, and i mixed up real life and virtual.
Real life and virtual world was like the same to me.
And i was very into damage, damage was very important in this game.
I had a lot of stress on how to upgrade my equips.

Everyday, i couldn't sleep.
Once i'm on bed, my mind would be about upgrading equips.
Resulting in insomia, and being absence in school then.

Also inside, i could get all the help i need, and i don't have to help other people.
I can always give some excuse to avoid it, which also result in being self-centered.
Of cause, as i said, i mixed real life and virtual, so yeah. Self - Centered!

I also mentioned in many of my post before, i always reject friend's request to go out.
These clearly was because i wanted to play maplestory.
Sigh.. i was really a loser in secondary school.
Such low life i have got here.

Now, its all past, i have quitted school and regretted.
It's all experience now.
I will undergo a change!
That, i can promised!

new term ;D

2009-07-08T08:53:00.000-07:00

it's bad, everytime, i wanted to blog, i have nothing to type.
After i'm done with blogging, ill have alot of things that i wanted to type.
Damn this, why like that?
I realised i've lost quite an amount of friends.

It's all my fault, i can blame no one.
Everybody asked me out, but i rejected.
Slowly, they won't ask you to go out anymore.
Sigh, i missed the golden period.
Secondary school is the best.

Thats where you get to know true friends.
I really regretted that i didn't socialise during the later part of secondary school days.
I was on the internet everyday single day.
As you go higher, there will be politics, it's everywhere.
Although i hate politics, but i just have to cope with it.

I'm sure nobody like politics.
I missed my secondary school friends.
They really help each other out.
Hopefully, there will be another outing, this time, i'll go for sure!

Today, i went to catch 2 movies.
One was ice age 3 and another was transformer.
I must say ice age 3 isn't that nice, transformer on the other hand, was astonishing.
So far, it's the only movie which have a second part,
and i felt it's better then the previous one.
All other movies, which have a second or third part,
I didn't thought it was as nice or nicer then the part one movie.

Very good show indeed, It's worth my 6bucks.
Alright, i'll end here, byebye everyone.
=)

Moody

2009-07-01T08:10:00.000-07:00

Finally i updated, but updated due to super boring.
I'm still as lazy as ever, alot of things haven't done.

I'm in a total loss now.Very complicated.
But i do love her..
Really wished her to be happy.
I don't know what can i do to make her happy.

I will try my best, hope she will be happy.
Hope it will works.
Things will be better . =)

2009-05-30T22:19:00.000-07:00

Finally i updated my blog. -.-
Things wasn't as good as before.
History seems to be repeating itself.
I couldn't conquer the old me.

It was real hard.
This is definitely going to affects my studies.
Sincerely hope i can cancel the word lazy in my dictionary. -___-
More and more pressure are coming up.

I shall blog about this one incident that happen during the past weeks.
I found out that Science and religons really conflict each other.
In science, there is no such thing as religons.
Everything has to have prove.
I find it quite fascinating that there is still tons of people who believe in religons.

Although i am a free thinker myself, But whatever i says here wasn't meant to be insulting.
Sometimes, i really wonder, if i'm dead, where will i really be?
After watching this move call "Angel and Demons",
It made me wonder more.
There are many religons, and i believe most followers choose their religon due to their older generation or influence.

I have seen myself how being in a religon have changed and helped a person tremendously.
This is something that is worth rejoicing!
I personally respect these religons, however i couldn't really believe that god actually existed.
Pershaps i should end the topic here and not elaborate much on it.

Sigh

2009-05-06T07:39:00.000-07:00

Suddenly, i kinda miss her.
Its been so long yet suddenly i miss her.
I hope this stop, nothing will come out of it.
Sigh...

Trying to cope in school also, it isn't easy.
From a super lazy me to become hardworking,
Really take alot of perservance.
Nevertheless, ill try.

So long already, i havn't been able to have a proper sleep.
I know what causes it, but it is very hard to quit gaming.
I am trying to moderate games and work already.
hopefully can achieve it.

Nothing to talk about already.
Gone,,

School started

2009-04-15T02:06:00.000-07:00

school started, today was start of first lesson.
First lesson, teach me about virtual computer.
Great, now i know how to on multiple maple in 1 com. -.-
ok enough about that.

Actually ite quite interesting, So far i didn't see any gangster in my class,
(hope there won't be any).Ok thats enough of school.

Suddenly, maple and dota like nothing to me anymore.
Its like going back to december, the time i wanted to quit.
During that point of time, really there was nothing i could do,

Luckily i found work.NTUC is cool ok.
I love the supervisors there.
They are really kind and help you alot.
They don't show it but they do care for you.

Now, i hope i can really concentrate on my studies.
I already flunked my O's.
I can't afford to flunk ite also.
Just a short summary for myself.

Alright, bye all. =)

Nothing much .

2009-04-01T09:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, went to zh's bbq.
Was quite a sudden decision to go over,
Previously i was planning to go movie with other friends.
End up, go bbq.

Super waste money .
Lost 30bucks in blackjack.
Seriously, first time i lost so much.
They talked quite alot of things there.
Shall not comment too much on it.

Today was april fool's day.
Didn't went out,
rot at home whole day.
Thats all.

Bye all =)

Happylicious.

2009-03-30T05:24:00.000-07:00

Woot, excellent day.
Woke up at 6.55am.
Bathed, and then prepare for cousin's wedding.
Cabbed there and was super hungry,
So i went to mac to buy food and tapao some for family members.
When i reached cousin's house, my Auntie gave me $88 angpao for opening the groom's door!
Later when i went down to open the door again, i got another $138 angpao.
Woot, Congratulations to Tan Zhi Yuan, who don't have to eat cup noodles for the next 5 days.

Ok, after that cabbed down to simei ITE.
It was HUGE. -.-
Went to register and then fill up some form.
After that went for the blindness test.
Got 13/15, i guess i can't see purple and pink together.
Really can't see clearly. -.-
However, i still passed. =D

Next, was the Payment for ite first term school fees.
Fill up some form again, and then proceed to photo taking session.
My hair was so long lah, but still manage to show eyebrown and ear.
Last was uniform, Super funny lah,
Got 3 types of uniform, 6 types of color.-.-
I told the person giv me this type, 3 color each then.
Didn't know which to choose,

Bought 2 pe shirts and shorts too.
It was very fast.
I thought the whole procedure would be long,
To my surprise, it only took me a good 30min.s
Ha, was super tired then,Cabbed home.

Went to sleep until 5+ and woke up surfing the net.
Sometimes, i wonder, Have i really changed?
Did i change for the better?
Time will truely tell everything,
But by the time, time shows, it would be all too late.

Hopefully, i can advance to poly after 2 years of ITE.
I may be later then my batch, but its never too late to study.
Alright have fun all.
Time to bath . =)

BANKRUPT

2009-03-29T07:47:00.000-07:00

omg la, I am offically bankrupt already.
I spend money like water . -_-
Super horrified when i saw my wallet left 10 bucks today.
Looks like i have no more money to spend for the month.
Have to wait till 1st of april then. =(

Stupid laptop, make my bank become zero.
Now that i have no more money,
I can't go out already. -.-
Totally spoilt my mood.

Ok, enough of the bankrupt already.
Lets skip the topic.
Oh ya, I am a complete noob in vista laptop.
Don't even have time to explore it.
F>some kind people to teach me ok . =D

Today was quite a boring.
Once i woke up, have to rush off to work.
2~10pm is really so long when something is boring. -.-
Luckily i could do forwarding again. =D

By the way, Alot chiobu went NTUC today lor.
They so bright up my mood.
Recently, working as cashier really was dull.
Suddenly i feel like its really very boring.
We kept on doing the same thing, again and again.

Tomorrow will be another busy day.
Early morning, have to rush off to cousin's ROM,
Surely would waste 4~5 hours.
Then, have to cab to simei ite.
Register, buy uniform, pay school fees, etc etc.

Worst of all, i didn't cut my hair,
WTFHAXBBQX, gg already, tomorrow, when i reach there, bound to get scolded.
Ok la, nothing to blog already.
Have a good sleep everyone.
Bye. =)

Bad day -.-

2009-03-28T08:33:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 12pm today,
straight went to horntail after that.
Everything was so rushed. After horntail, have to rushed of to work.

Working today was so boring.
I totally didn't have any mood to work.
Luckily i could do forwarding.It so brights up my day.
Saw kai qian and kan chong on ntuc.
Chat for awhile.
Really great to see friends once in awhile.

Things were suppose to be great today.
However, things got bad when i accepted a supplier coupon in ntuc today.
Previously i ask ah din whether could i accept it,
He said its alright to accept it,
and so i did.

Later inside the cashier room, we look carefully at the coupon
and found out that it could only be used to pay bills in ntuc. -.-
Which means i will have to cough up the 40bucks.
I was thinking, SHIT man. THIS SUCKS.

Ah din then decided to pay the 40bucks,as he was the one who told me to accept it.
i felt i have some responsible to, i should have paid 20 bucks too. =(
Bad day today.
Had positive $2.45 today.

Tomorrow have to work again, sigh.
Monday will be cousin's wedding soon,
it would also be the ite registration day.
Will be very rushing.

On a side note, on weekends,
NTUC tend to have quite a number of babes. =D
Make my life so much happier.
I'm not Tico please.
Just man instinct. =/

hello all =D

2009-03-27T00:26:00.000-07:00

oh, great so many people created blog, now is my turn.
maybe i blog to past time, absolutely nothing to do at home.

Ok, firstly,
Big thanks to deb for helping me set up this blog,
it would really take me 5hrs to complete it if i'm the one doing it. -.-

Sigh, time really flies. March is ending soon,
school is starting.
this 4 months were great, i've learn many new things.
Especially skills, previously i was such a TooT,
Everything about me was negative,

i am really thankful that i decided to work during the holidays,
it really changed me alot, i have kicked away computer addiction,
Games really doesn't make any difference to me now.
i wasn't as lazy as last time , i became more independant.

its really great now, things have changed drastically for me.
I hope this last forever.
i lost alot of friends previously, really regretted.
Hope i will be a better person now.

Alright, nothing much to say already.
Bye all .

减肥 减肥 减肥 减肥 减肥 减肥 减肥 减肥 减肥 减肥 减肥！！！

Goodbye

You changed my life.

Revival of YaN

Labour day, is known as queue day!

Hahah, I'm updating already!

Time flyyyyyyyyys

My grammer sucks. I just read through it and finally did some editing.

HI, this is YaN updating.

i'm finally updating.

Happy lunar new year!!!

Pictures!

Chinese new year is near.

Woot lovely

Lalala, Lalala!

Library, here i come!

Reflecting our actions.

Life is good if you live good. =]

My right knee isn't recovering.

I'm feeling soooo good!

Crap.

Hi lynn.

Bright day.

Enjoying every moment of my life.

It's finally happening!

Directing my interest elsewhere.

Directing my interest elsewhere.

Enjoy the small little moments happening in our lifes.

Tired

Surprised

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Only you..

This is for you.

It's LATE!

straighten thinking.

new term ;D

Moody

Sigh

School started

Nothing much .

Happylicious.

BANKRUPT

Bad day -.-

hello all =D

减肥减肥减肥减肥减肥减肥减肥减肥减肥减肥减肥！！！