Chinese new year is near.

It seems that i didn't change enough yet. my character building was a complete fail. My mouth is still as sharp as drills. Nevertheless, It's a new month, i've set my new targets. One would surely be character building, another would be weight management. I know i did lost weights, and it's quite amazing on how much i have lost in just 1.5months. But i feel it's not enough.

i really hope when school starts, i will be around 80 or even 78. Perhaps some may say it's not healthy losing weight this way, i care too much on my appearance now. I really do not want to go back to my old life. Escaping from reality, Feeling inferior to others, etc. I'm no doubt, still shy towards girls that i don't know. I'm not afraid to say that. I still felt inferior, lack of confidence. I tried asking from advise from some of the girls i previously known. Hopefully the advise will help me overcome it.

Anyway i was blog/facebook hoping today. I saw so many of my oldmates enjoying their teenage life. I really felt jealous of them. The way i used to treat them, it's really what i deserve now. How am i going to change my life? Am i really in full control of my life? I think i am, though there is tons of factors that you can't control that will affect your life. However, i will try to make it as good as possible.

I have some viewpoints that i want to share it here. I don't know previously did i mention it here. I'm quite into philosophy now. I'll show 2 simple examples here. There is one batch of 'O' level students that successfully applied for cashiers in fairprice. It's good. However surprisely, their parents came to complain regarding their break time. They complained about fairprice ill-treating new staff, didn't give them any time to eat. This clearly shows something.

It not only shows how protective parents are now. It also shows how parents and children's viewpoint are completely different. Let me elaborate further why. After one day or two day of work in fairprice, the child got back home. His/Her parent asked regarding what did he/she had for lunch. The child answered nothing. Parents would surely ask more, did fairprice not give you any time to eat? Did they ill-treat my child?
Perhaps the child can give a simple excuse, which is, i didn't eat because i was too busy/no time to eat/ i don't know whether i can eat/.

A simple remark, yet the next day, the parents came down and complained. How stupid can the parent be? Don't they know by doing such actions, they will make the child lose face in front of all the colleagues. I know they want the best for their child, they care for them. However, such actions are purely stupid. It really would hurt the child's pride.
Guess what, One of the new cashier's excuse on not to eat was because she usually take 1hour to eat, therefore 30minutes(cashier eating time) wasn't enough for her, so she choose to skip.

How ridiculous can that be. From these cases, i analysis and came up with a conclusion. Parents and teenage's viewpoint are very different. Although in parent's viewpoints, they want the best for their child, but they didn't think in their child's shoe and do things without much thinking, resulting in hurting their pride. In a teenage's viewpoint, sometimes when they are questioned by their parent,they thought coming up with a stupid excuse will do. They think it will solve the questioning. They didn't think of the chain effect that they caused. Parents may start question about responsiblity, why was my child ill-treated? Whose responsible for it? I think if both group of people could stand in each other's shoes, and think what did they do those actions, and learn the ability of thinking each other's viewpoint, then it would be perfect.

Well, the above conclusion is based purely on the example. I'm sure this is the going trend in parent's way of guiding their children. I have already developed the kind of ablilty to think on my parent's point of view. i know my life with my family will be better then ever. have you develop yours? x)

Goodnight.
YaN