Goodbye

This is so unexpected. The only reason why I decided to blog was again because of you. I did not even expect my last blog post was about you. 1 Year passed, same problem i'm facing with you again.

But hey, this time it's different. I'm pretty sure. There is so many things I want to mention here.

I was nice to you, you were nice to me. Things change drastically when i fall for you and confessed. I have to admit I did too many stupid and silly things for the past 4 months.

You taught me what is punctuality. You taught me what is EQ. You made me become so concious of my surroundings.

You were my priority, and because of that, Sub-conciously, you climbed to the top of my head. I lost my dignity in front of you. You could just turn your temper anytime on me, and I will just suck it up. I thought It was alright, at least we are still communicating.

I shielded you in project, I thought that was good. I was wrong, so wrong. You took me for granted. Sure you did improve in group discussion, but even in projects, you gave me attitudes. There was nothing we could talk. I restricted myself out from so many things.

Just 1 week ago, I made one of the hardest decision in my life. That was to give you up. That was when I realise, there is so much thing I could do towards this friendship. I wasn't myself for the past 4 months. When I reflected, things changed, my mind became so clear I could anticipate your moves. It took me 4months to know your character. It wasn't easy. I may not know what you think, But I know how you react, I began to realise the importance of myself. I found out I belittle myself so much in the friendship that I wasn't giving myself the respect I deserve. I could do changes, I had the power. I used to think the one controling the friendship was you, till I stand back and reflect.

Sure I myself have faults too, I'm sorry, I apologised. I know definitely somehow I played a small role in shaping you for who you are now.