Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Happy lunar new year!!!

A very happy lunar new year to all of you. Haha, i haven't been blogging did i? Well, this lunar new year was quite boring for me. The family wasn't as close as ever. I didn't even see a full family reunion this time round. However the good thing is, as usual, i ask my cousins about their life and found out alot of stuffs.

One main intersting topic would be my younger cousin gerry. He is really a mini giant. He is 100+ kilograms and very tall. Don't scold me a backstabber just yet. I'm about to compliment him. He told me alot of girls like him. I was startled initially. However, after further conversation and analysing, i believe him. He has this one good character which i have to admit, i don't have. He is very thick skin.

He is really the joker among any clique he go out with. with his funny actions, words, people who are beside him, would surely laugh. That's the reason why girls will like him. Looks are just the first impression. After knowing each other for long, I believe the character of a person is more of a criteria then looks. I got amazed by my cousin. I will learn from him and develop such characteristic!

This is a short post, don't have mood to blog nowadays. Anyway, i hope i don't sound desperate. I'm not in a rush to find a girlfriend. It's just I want to experiences true teenage love. My mindset is already very adulthood. I hope it's just not too late yet. Alright, shall blog again soon.

Takecare all.
YaN

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Pictures!

For the first time, i'm going to post pictures in this blog! How wonderful! Well, i'm going to post my clique's photo! I must say, Pixon12's photo capablility is really awesome. Good quality! It's been awhile ever since i last blogged. I was lazy then, hahaha.

i was also quite busy with work. I had some surprise when i went out with the clique on saturday. Really, it was a surprise. Marcus will be going down this tuesday to appeal for Hnitec in Bishan ITE. I hope he can get it. It's good to have another partner in the school. =]

Recently, i have some family problems too. My oldest sister, she still can't get back up, It's been worst ever since she went Dubai to work. I understand that having depression isn't any kidding matter. However sometimes, the fact that she acts childishly really pissed people off. No matter what, She is always my sister. We as a family have to be united and stand for each other.

It's the first time i seen my father, weeping so pitifully in front of my family. I got completely stunned and disappointed. Stunned because my whole life, i didn't even seen him crying so pitifully, not even when my grandparents died. Disapointed because after my rebellious saga, came my sister's issue. My parents are always so worried for us. They have reached a age whereby they should have retired and enjoy life. Needless to say, they are definitely not enjoying their "retired" life.

Alright, Enough of talks. I shall leave my Philosophy talks to next post. i have some things that i haven't thought about, and i'll talk about it once i have think through. =) Let the pictures do the talking!


Ji Long




My fatty neck!



Marcus



Darren



Ivan



Alright, that's all for now. Goodnight peeps!

Monday, February 1, 2010

Chinese new year is near.

It seems that i didn't change enough yet. my character building was a complete fail. My mouth is still as sharp as drills. Nevertheless, It's a new month, i've set my new targets. One would surely be character building, another would be weight management. I know i did lost weights, and it's quite amazing on how much i have lost in just 1.5months. But i feel it's not enough.

i really hope when school starts, i will be around 80 or even 78. Perhaps some may say it's not healthy losing weight this way, i care too much on my appearance now. I really do not want to go back to my old life. Escaping from reality, Feeling inferior to others, etc. I'm no doubt, still shy towards girls that i don't know. I'm not afraid to say that. I still felt inferior, lack of confidence. I tried asking from advise from some of the girls i previously known. Hopefully the advise will help me overcome it.

Anyway i was blog/facebook hoping today. I saw so many of my oldmates enjoying their teenage life. I really felt jealous of them. The way i used to treat them, it's really what i deserve now. How am i going to change my life? Am i really in full control of my life? I think i am, though there is tons of factors that you can't control that will affect your life. However, i will try to make it as good as possible.

I have some viewpoints that i want to share it here. I don't know previously did i mention it here. I'm quite into philosophy now. I'll show 2 simple examples here. There is one batch of 'O' level students that successfully applied for cashiers in fairprice. It's good. However surprisely, their parents came to complain regarding their break time. They complained about fairprice ill-treating new staff, didn't give them any time to eat. This clearly shows something.

It not only shows how protective parents are now. It also shows how parents and children's viewpoint are completely different. Let me elaborate further why. After one day or two day of work in fairprice, the child got back home. His/Her parent asked regarding what did he/she had for lunch. The child answered nothing. Parents would surely ask more, did fairprice not give you any time to eat? Did they ill-treat my child?
Perhaps the child can give a simple excuse, which is, i didn't eat because i was too busy/no time to eat/ i don't know whether i can eat/.

A simple remark, yet the next day, the parents came down and complained. How stupid can the parent be? Don't they know by doing such actions, they will make the child lose face in front of all the colleagues. I know they want the best for their child, they care for them. However, such actions are purely stupid. It really would hurt the child's pride.
Guess what, One of the new cashier's excuse on not to eat was because she usually take 1hour to eat, therefore 30minutes(cashier eating time) wasn't enough for her, so she choose to skip.

How ridiculous can that be. From these cases, i analysis and came up with a conclusion. Parents and teenage's viewpoint are very different. Although in parent's viewpoints, they want the best for their child, but they didn't think in their child's shoe and do things without much thinking, resulting in hurting their pride. In a teenage's viewpoint, sometimes when they are questioned by their parent,they thought coming up with a stupid excuse will do. They think it will solve the questioning. They didn't think of the chain effect that they caused. Parents may start question about responsiblity, why was my child ill-treated? Whose responsible for it? I think if both group of people could stand in each other's shoes, and think what did they do those actions, and learn the ability of thinking each other's viewpoint, then it would be perfect.

Well, the above conclusion is based purely on the example. I'm sure this is the going trend in parent's way of guiding their children. I have already developed the kind of ablilty to think on my parent's point of view. i know my life with my family will be better then ever. have you develop yours? x)

Goodnight.
YaN