Tired

The ritual for my ancestor was over.
It was a 2day program.
Due to i was having a headache on friday, i went there around 7pm.
Once i reach, my family and i ate dinner and the ritual started.

There were 3 monks chanting and we have to always hold 3 joss stick
and have to kneel, stand for the process.
It's a very relaxing thing actually,
There is at least 30min break before each ritual start.
The ritual only last for 30~45minutes.

It was never a whole family.
Quite alot of family members could'nt make it.
I realised to make one such ritual,
you have to have alot of manpower.
Yesterday which was saturday,
My whole family invited guest for dinner at night,
There were a total of 49 tables, woah.

Thats real lot, considering the tentage is on carpark and it's quite huge though.
People who don't know, may think that it's a 7-month event. lol
This is how huge that dinner was.
Also, my family bought a $7888 stick house for our ancestor.
Can you imagine burning $7k+ in 10minutes time?

I know when it comes to religon, it is very sensitive.
I just felt painful for the money. =/
There is alot wastage of food used in the ritual,
i felt so wasted, but yet i could do nothing,
as our family doesn't eat those,
it's purely bought for the ritual.

Well today, was quite boring, woke up, com for awhile,
then i was syncing my itouch for musics.
I stole my sister's hard disk previously to copy the music files over.
hahah, i miss those old songs.
They were very much worth mesmerizing.

6th day of jogging later.
i'm having muscle cramps all over.
Especially my arms, very very painful.
However i will continue to jog and slim down gradually!
I really regretted eating so much last time.

I am already beginning to think my body is failing.
I hope i will be given a second chance.
I want to keep fit and have a healthy life.
I have read some of the symptoms of possible illness i may have,
and i'm very much traumatized.

Lets hope i an cut down on my fats!.
Jian Fei <3

GoodBye.