Tired

The ritual for my ancestor was over.
It was a 2day program.
Due to i was having a headache on friday, i went there around 7pm.
Once i reach, my family and i ate dinner and the ritual started.

There were 3 monks chanting and we have to always hold 3 joss stick
and have to kneel, stand for the process.
It's a very relaxing thing actually,
There is at least 30min break before each ritual start.
The ritual only last for 30~45minutes.

It was never a whole family.
Quite alot of family members could'nt make it.
I realised to make one such ritual,
you have to have alot of manpower.
Yesterday which was saturday,
My whole family invited guest for dinner at night,
There were a total of 49 tables, woah.

Thats real lot, considering the tentage is on carpark and it's quite huge though.
People who don't know, may think that it's a 7-month event. lol
This is how huge that dinner was.
Also, my family bought a $7888 stick house for our ancestor.
Can you imagine burning $7k+ in 10minutes time?

I know when it comes to religon, it is very sensitive.
I just felt painful for the money. =/
There is alot wastage of food used in the ritual,
i felt so wasted, but yet i could do nothing,
as our family doesn't eat those,
it's purely bought for the ritual.

Well today, was quite boring, woke up, com for awhile,
then i was syncing my itouch for musics.
I stole my sister's hard disk previously to copy the music files over.
hahah, i miss those old songs.
They were very much worth mesmerizing.

6th day of jogging later.
i'm having muscle cramps all over.
Especially my arms, very very painful.
However i will continue to jog and slim down gradually!
I really regretted eating so much last time.

I am already beginning to think my body is failing.
I hope i will be given a second chance.
I want to keep fit and have a healthy life.
I have read some of the symptoms of possible illness i may have,
and i'm very much traumatized.

Lets hope i an cut down on my fats!.
Jian Fei <3

GoodBye.

Surprised

It's the fouth day of jogging already.
I can't believe that i, YaN will do so much for it.
You are so far away from me, yet i fall in love for you.
Besides, it's all one sided feeling.
The chancess of together is like 0.001%.

It's the first time after 3years, that i'm back to exercising
and pushing myself for it, automatically going for jogging everyday.
It's also the first time, i'm doing it for a girl.
regardless of what, the chances are real slim, it doesn't matter.
I have to slim down.

I want a change in my lifestyle.
I'm very, seriously very stunned that i am doing something
for a girl.
Getting me to exercise is like mission impossible.
I used to tell my clique of friends,
If ever i slim down, it will be for the sake of women.

I thought i was just saying it, to escape reality of slimming down.
Right now, i'm doing it, i'm really doing it!
I have to keep it up!
I want to look good, have more opposite gender of cliques.

Whatever it is, i have made my confession,
I love you.
Good bye..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Happy birthday Cheah Ji Long, Brothers forever!

Shall blog more tomorrow. :D

Only you..

我爱你....我只要你...

This is for you.

This is for you!
i blogged!.

I bought ps3 yesterday.
i think i got scammed though.
But nevermind, thats not the point.

Well, i want to slim down!
I have actually something in mind.
I seriously thought of slimming down.
Actually, i wanted to go army first,
due to i wanted to slim down before i go to school.

I felt inferior to girls.
Thats so bad, no confidence at all. -.-
Now i have another mindset.
Maybe i can try exercising every night.
I will then register for school.
Well all that is if my army letter don't come by end of december.

i wanted to be fit when i'm in school, i wanted to interact with girls too.
well i am trying it right now, and hopefully i will succeed.
Night-jogging <3 ;D
After buying ps3, i have no money for my daily expense now.-.-
Noe, i have to ask money from my parents already. saddddd.

Lets hope my life will get better.
I have been talking some life experiences to my friends too.
I felt its nice to have a talk with them,
as they are like my mirror, walking through what i face last time.
I find it interesting to talk about life principles with anyone.

I hope my current clique of friends will stay as it is,
for i <3 my clique of friends, and we will always enjoying all of our outings!
Okay,i'm done with blogging.
byebye !

It's LATE!

It's 3.43 am now.
Well, i couldn't sleep, and there is nothing i could do.
Yeah, so i'll blog to kill time.

My god, i just gotten viral infection.
I think i jolly well deserved it.
Even when i was having sore throat,
I continued to eat junk food,
resulting viral infection.

Anyway i recovered and was on mc for 2days.
That's shit, because those aunties will nag/ask
why you sick? i have to cover your duties during your 2days of mcs.
Blah.. Blah..
I hate that.

Past few days, i was doing absolutely nothing.
Going out also seems to be bored.
There is like nothing to enjoy out there.
When I'm inside, it would be computer.
Never ever will i take a book and read it.
How boring my life is!

My mum went oversea anyway.
Seems to me i have changed.
I used to love it when my mum go overseas.
It would mean freedom.

Now, i'm not one bit happy.
Instead i felt bored.
My house is like a hotel.
My relationship with my sister isn't going any better.
Sigh..

Okay, i shall stop here.

Goodnight all.

Ps
Where are youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu?
I miss you so muchhhhhhh =[

straighten thinking.

Ha, i'm blogging now.!


I want to go back studies.
I love to study.
These few days, always work work work!
If ever i have off, it will be out!
I didn't stay home and mug computer anymore!

I discuss with my mom too.
I told her if my Ns letter don''t come by end of december,
I may want to get back to studies, ITE.
The other option, would be after army, i go ahead with private.
Initially, she was giving me a negative answer.
She still sense that i'm hook on the computer.

However, after i told her, my next course that i'll be studying wouldn't be computer anymore.
It seems that she once again believed in me.
Thank god.
I lost this trust several years ago.
I want to earn it back!
I found out, my interest was in business!

I want to study more about business!
COMPUTER IS JUST SHIT.
Though i was years behind my friends, but i will make it!=]
ever since, i went full time work,
without any studies, i was idling around.
then i fully realise the pressure of a adult,
Its about money.

Okay, Hope my path onwards will be great!
My beloved mum...
Shes always so good, supporting me.
yet i showed her my stupid attituide.
No matter how old you are, all mothers will treat their children as kids.
Forever taking care of them, worrying for them.
I love my mother <3.

Next will be my sister!
They were so good to my previously!
All my branded stuff were bought by my sister.
I will try to be better.
I was so cold to my family eversince 2009.
I love my sisters too!

This is for lynn de,
Bendannnnnnnn lol.
so cute ;D
Hope you enjoyed the song.
My first time singing for a girl.
<3

Bye Bye.